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Lord Maru's personal blog where they post their personal thoughts, art, shit posts, and more.
This is unprompted. Nobody said anything to me but I feel like I have to say this anyway. I draw art for me. Not for you and especially not for your approval.
This applies to ALL of my artwork but particularly fan art and DEFINITELY Divine Acid. There WILL be people who vibe with it but if you don't. That's fine too, I just will not make special accommodations for you. I will not change who I am or anything about myself or my art especially if it doesn't feel authentic.
If you have been following me you know that I draw Fairly Oddparents and Danny Phantom. Well, I haven't been drawing them as much as I used to for a good while but that's about to change. I'm tired of letting fear get in the way of drawing something that brings me happiness. So expect to see more fan art of these franchises not because I want followers or likes but because I have to for my own healing. My goal is to find true happiness from within when it comes to drawing fanart of them. When I drew these characters before, I was so worried about the approval of others and how many followers or likes I got from it but I don't want to do that anymore. I want to draw them my way in my own time. I want to be able to pour my soul in each piece. I don't care about the trends and I don't care about the approval of others. I just wanna draw.
Also please understand that while more fanart will be drawn, I still have my own projects such as Divine Acid that I had to learn to love all on my own. So don't expect me to drop my personal projects all because I'm doing more fanart.
Okay so I know you guys who have followed me for a long time may have noticed that I have started a Youtube channel again. But why did I quit the other one? What makes this one different? Well, the problem I had before is that I was thinking of myself as a brand and I had to make it perfect. I was thinking in terms of views and subscribers and not if the content that I was creating was good or not or if it helped anyone. I was being too much of a gimmick in hopes of gaining subscribers. So when things didn't go the way I planned, I just quit.
Now this didn't mean I never wanted to make Youtube videos again but I had to look at what went wrong and decide WHY I'm mnaking videos. Or just why I'm making content in the first place. Upon having the revelation I had when I made those key chains.....I start doing new things for the wrong reasons. It was inauthentic. I did it to get a quick buck or to get more subscribers, followers etc. That kind of motivation always fails.
Recently someone wanted to know how I made my blog. So I was like....I'll just make a Youtube video because it's easier for me to show it and explain it. After making that video it finally clicked. I shouldn't be making Youtube videos to get subscribers and what not. I should be making it to help or inspire people. So I'm now making my next video. No more gimmicks or any of that nonsense. I just want to be me.I want to tell my story. So this time, I'm doing this based on what feels right. Intuitively if you will.
Anyway, hope you guys will like the next video because it's a personal one that I hope will inspire everyone.
Look I genuinely love the Fairly Oddparents and Danny Phantom. I really do. And it took me a while to learn to enjoy them again after a rough 2024 in the fandom. All of 2025 was me doing some introspection and self reflection. Re-discovering who I am, what I wanted and why. Safe to say I'm glad I had to learn this lesson. It was a brutal and painful one but it changed me and caused me to go through metamorphosis. And as such, I learned a lot about myself and scoial media as a whole.
Right now I am just so happy to be able to enjoy FOP and DP in my own way, in my own space. And that was the goal the entire time. During my year of introspection, I decided I wanted to cultivate my own space and my own audience. Not just for FOP and DP but for Divine Acid as well because I also learned to love my own work.
If you are in a dark place, please know that it's temporary. Joy will come back again. It'll take some time but be gentle with yourself. Know who your real friends are, cherish your family, and learn to love yourself and your hobbies.
We all have that part of ourselves that we try to repress, ignore, and run away from. The part of ourselves that makes us uncomfortable. Our shadow selves is a part of who we are whether we like it or not. In terms of Psychology, it is an unconscious aspect of ourselves. Esoterically, there are certain conditions to where you can go even deeper with it. Like in my case: Accidental Hypersigiling.
What is hypersigiling you may ask? A hyper sigil is a drawn symbol or a piece of art drawn with intent and then charged in various ways. This term was coined by Grant Morrison, who was notable for turning his comic, The Invisibles, into a hypersigil. This is essentially what I did with Chance. The only difference is, it was an accident. How did that happen?
Well, in 2009, when I first made Chance the rabbit in high school. I didn't have any sort of intention whatsoever. He was just a happy go lucky bunny with a big ego who could sing and play guitar. That was it. In 2015, I stopped drawing him for a while because I gave up on whatever rendition of the comic I was doing at the time. My self esteem was low, my self worth was low. The only thing that was high was my envy and my rage. I went of a side quest of fanart for Dragon Ball, Foster's Home, and My Little Pony. No Chance the Rabbit was to be seen because of course the fan art made it easier to get traction and followers. Unfortunately, fandoms are toxic. Now I didn't have the worst time in these particular fandoms. Only one but we'll get to that later.
Fast forward to 2020, back when we were on lockdown. Well, at my job, we were told to stay home because everyone was trying not to get covid. So it was basically a three month vacation. I took this opportunity to bring back my boy and start the beloved webcomic Divine Acid. Now I'm sure you're wondering "When are you going to get to the hypersigiling part?" Oh don't you worry. We're getting there because what makes this rendition of the comic different is that I was just introduced into the occult. It was also a time I was into Dragon Ball which played a role in it.
This time around, I didn't just bring Chance back, I projected a lot of myself into him and the comic. I poured all of my insecurities and all the qualities I hated about myself onto him. At the time I didn't have the knowledge, recourses, or skills to deal with all of my shadow aspects so I just channeled it through him in not just the comic but a lot of my artwork. I projected all of my anger and envy expressed though visual anger using Dragon Ball inspired expressions. In fact, I designed and modeled Chance after Vegeta with that tough guy attitude. This was during a time where I put the tough guy act on myself and ran away from my "foolish emotions" pretending not to care about anyone else. Yes quite edgy I know. But that only made things worse. I ended up bottling up so much and my only means of expressing any of it was through Chance. I did this for about three years.
With all of that raw emotion, projection, and artwork, eventually I noticed what seemed like Chance speaking to me. There were times when I would doodle his expressions on a big empty canvas, based on how I felt and what I saw in my mind as if he wanted me to channel those out to convey a message. While I did take note of this, I didn't think much of it. I did question if Chance somewhat had a mind of his own but never actually took the time to dig deeper.
In 2023, is when I started resenting him and the comic. I mean who would want to look in the mirror and only see the worst parts of themselves? At this point in time I had confirmed that Chance was indeed....semi-sentient. My only thought process was "well if I keep doing this comic and keep drawing him, I'm only going to manifest these shadow aspects and make them worse!" So, I considered quitting the comic and drop him all together. I was only SLOWLY updating the comic with weeks in between pages because I got so mentally exhausted and the resentment made it harder and harder for me to push through. Then I went on another tangent.
In comes the Fairly Oddparents! I'm not gonna go too much into detail with this one. Long story short, I ditched Chance for fanart of the Fairly Oddparents during the new series, gained popularity, and connections only to have one of the worst experiences of my life and lose it all. Now, don't get me wrong there was some good that came out of this. It was one of the biggest and most valuable life lessons that helped me realize what's actually important. First off, it helped me see the value in my comic, Divine Acid and secondly, Chance needed to be approached with compassion and understanding.
About a week and a half ago I was told about understanding the moon. I didn't get it at first until now and it makes sense. The moon has two sides. One side illuminated and the other covered in darkness. It represents the two aspects of ourselves. Obviously the shadow self being the the dark side of the moon. If you're an esoteric practitioner like me, certain phases of the moon can be useful for shadow work. I started doing shadow work in late 2023. It's hard the first time around but the more you do it the easier it gets and the more you understand it. Shadow work is never done. In fact, it takes a life time. You're always learning and discovering new things about yourself and your life's journey.
Upon working with Chance, I have discovered a few things:
And this is only after a week and a half. I'm excited to spend more quality time with him because boy oh boy he could definitely use it. Poor little guy.
Anyway that's all I have for now! I will see you next time! And don't forget to catch me on my live streams!
Well because sometimes I wanna write about my thoughts and some of those thoughts can't fit in a BlueSky post or on Instagram so here I am. On top of that I have always wanted my own little corner of the internet to just fuck off into. A space just for me. I might make a blog for Divine Acid....maaaaayyybbbeeee idk. Otherwise, Divine Acid updates will be posted here.
Speaking of Divine Acid, I am currently doing character Designs. I am currently working on Gel and she is a monstrosity!!
Now the next character I need to design is Piper and she is going to be a hoot! You'll either Love her or find her annoying. Then I gotta design the boats they'll be on and a few other things. So apologies if things have been taking long. I have been drowning in commissions which is fine cuz that's income and also since it's near Christmas things are just busy in general. Busiest time of the year.
Okay that's about it. I gotta go and do some stuff.
Hi there, I'm Lord Maru. I'm an artist, animator, and the creator of Divine Acid!
Don't expect anything completely wordy. I just wanna have a space of my own to like....ya know......do whatever. Anyway, here's a few pieces of art I made recently with Ohuhu Makrers!
If You can't tell yet. I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY like Cosmo from the Fairly Oddparents. In fact, I made my own version of him inspired by the Mesoamerican Deity Quetzalcoatl and thus gave him the name Cosmocoatl.
